I am so frustrated today, because my husband and I have been trying to conceive our second child for over a year now with no luck. I really thought I was pregnant, because I got a weird sensation a few weeks ago. I woke up this morning ready to take a pregnancy test, and got my period instead! We have a 2 year old daughter, who will be turning 3 in Jan. With her, we were not really trying (meaning I was not tracking ovulation or anything) and we got pregnant right away. When she was 1 year old, we decided to try again for another baby. Both I and my husband are only children, and we absolutely hated growing up alone. Neither of us wants that for Keira. After a few months of trying I got pregnant. I was about 11 weeks when we went to get our 1st sonogram, only to find out the baby had no heart beat. Needless to say I had to go to the hospital and have a D&C done. We both were heartbroken. After 8 months passed I felt it was important for Keira to have a sibling despite the pain I suffered, so we began trying again. To our dismay we are still trying. I feel we are doing everything right and I track my periods every month. I began to get a little depressed because I missed the feeling of being pregnant and the joy it brought. Not only that, but Keira is not a baby anymore and I really miss having a baby in the house. It did not seem so hard the first 2 times, why I wonder, is it now? My prediction is that maybe during the D&C I got some scaring, which could cause the baby to not be able to attach. Secondly, I find myself thinking that maybe it’s just not the right time. God does have a perfect time for everything, and when it’s meant to happen it will right? I have done numerous hours of research to find some reason why this time around is so much more difficult. Having no insurance means I cannot just go have myself checked out anytime I want, so I have to figure things out on my own. Today I took the next step and went to the store to buy an Ovulation test kit. I have no clue how it works or if it will even help, but I am willing to try anything at this point. Has anyone else ever gone through this after a D&C? Leave me some comments.
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Miscarriages run rampant in my wife's family, easily into double digits among just a few women. Throughout her first pregnancy (and now with her current one), I was on pins and needles hoping to never get the news that you did. I offer you my heartfelt condolences for your loss.
You mentioned God having a time for everything, this is definitely a true statement.
Another option could be adoption, which runs the same cost as the more specialized fertility treatments (depending on country). Many children (especially girls) don't get a chance to have a chance out there.
-J.L.
Thank you for your comment. I appreciate you very much.
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