Sunday, February 14, 2010

Little things

Little things can mean so much to me. Today is Valentine’s Day, a day to celebrate love. There are so many things my husband does for me that I love so much, and if he were to stop, I would really miss them. For instance, no matter what he is doing (other than when he is playing a video game) lol, if I walk by him, he will always touch me. On the arm, on the butt, on the tummy, whatever he can reach, he touches. I love that. When we have company over and we are entertaining and not talking to each other very much, he will be sure to make eye contact with me throughout the night, and give me a cute wink, just so I know he is thinking of me. I just wanted to take a moment to let him know how much I appreciate his affection. Not just on Valentine’s Day, but every day we are together. I love spending time with him and could not imagine my life without him in it. He is the father of my children, and the protector of my heart. The only one I dream of, and want to lie beside at night. He truly is my soul mate. Today we actually bought our first official bed as a married couple, and I am so excited to get it on Friday. What a wonderful Valentine’s Day this has been. One I will never forget! Thanks for being my one and only baby! I truly love you with all my heart and soul and as Tom cruise said “You complete me”!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

They grow so quickly

Here I am sitting on the couch sharing snacks with my 3 year old daughter, and she is being so sweet. She gives me one, then eats one her self. I can not get over how big she is getting. She is going to make a great big sister. She loves to help me. Everything I do, I do for her. It's like when you have a child, you are no longer you, it becomes us. I love being able to watch her learn and grow. She amazes me everyday with something new. A new word, a new expression, or just a cute little flip of her hair. I can not believe she is really mine. What a blessed life I have now that she has arrived in it. Didn't I just bring her home from the hospital? How can she be 3 already? WOW!

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Changing your stars!

We live our whole lives in a daze, programmed to never see anything but what's in front of us. Lately I have been wondering what would happen if I changed my mind set. I fear a lot of things. One big thing is change. My husband and I are stuck in the mindset of, in order to get a head we have to start a business. However I am finding that no matter how many businesses we try to start, without the right mindset they all fall! As a freelance writer, I am trying to branch out and do things I may not have thought of before. I was raised to sit on my money, put it in savings, or hold on to it for a rainy day, but that never gives me more then what I started with. I have to learn to give in to change and take some risk in order to change our situation. Otherwise we will stay right where we are, never getting ahead in life. My parents were middle class, as were my husbands, and we are taught to live that way. I want to be the one that changes that pattern for my kids. I am determined to be a success, and if that means I have to learn the investing market, then so be it!
I am tired of living in my parents shadow and not getting ahead. I want a nice home that I own, and not have to rent anymore. I want a big yard where my kids can play with the dogs. I would like to have my own vehicle that runs and is actually new, and above all I want the financial freedom to give my kids the things I never had.
It can happen right? As of this moment I am going to change my mindset from a poor brain to a rich one. Not sure how yet, but no longer will I fear money or hate it, or horde it away to never be touched. I have to let go of all those fears in order to have a better life!
I can do this! I know I can! I want to make something of myself, and prove this country girl can change her stars!